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angel_janeI have a crush on a guy. My problem is that he lives too far away to do anything about it. So when I hear something about his personal life, I get insane and jealous of the girl and then hurt like buggery because I know there is little to no chance to do anything about it.
So I hear about his love life and I sit back and then I hurt and want to cry, because it feels like my hear is tearing into two unequal peices and i'm meant to be a friend to him.
I want to curl up and scream. I want to rave. And I want to die because pain like this is too much. I hate this. I will never tell him. I'm too gutless. I will never be with him. I know this. Maybe I should stop being friends with him. But I know i'd hate to be without him in my life.
I hurt soooo bad.
So I hear about his love life and I sit back and then I hurt and want to cry, because it feels like my hear is tearing into two unequal peices and i'm meant to be a friend to him.
I want to curl up and scream. I want to rave. And I want to die because pain like this is too much. I hate this. I will never tell him. I'm too gutless. I will never be with him. I know this. Maybe I should stop being friends with him. But I know i'd hate to be without him in my life.
I hurt soooo bad.