Fuck me

Apr. 2nd, 2011 09:34 pm
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Since the wonderful [livejournal.com profile] sci_fi_shipper linked to a test and said oh this is eerily accurate I thought, well it is a psych test, lets see. I went through the test and that is the wackiest tests, and I would love to know how that works.

Here are my results.

Fond of tradition, but attached more to the joy of human interaction, you are often a beacon of hope to those members of society who have lost faith or who are in need of succor. You are often emotional, and this emotionality is rarely held in check. Kind and helping by nature, when affronted you will explode, and just as suddenly when the pain has passed return to normalcy again. On occasion this quick and vibrant emotionality is translated into a life on the stage or screen. You have a strong sense of right and wrong, but can sometimes be left confused and uncertain in times of stress or when tough decisions must be made. You avoid conflict, tending to stay out of trouble in hopes that the group will benefit most from this behavior. Because you have trouble putting your own needs first, you will be put in much stress if you find yourself in an unequal relationship, one in which your partner is not as giving as you are.

Here is the link to the test; http://www.hypnoid.com/psytest2.html
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You Are A: Pony!

ponyWho doesn't love a pony? You are one of these miniature horses, renown for your beauty and desired by many. Full of grace, you are a beautiful and very special animal, full of strength and majesty.

You were almost a: Duck or a Lamb
You are least like a: Chipmunk or a GroundhogThe Cute Animals Quiz

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Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line (or first and second line if it's completely impossible) from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing. Jumped to the first line that didn't give away the title in some cases.
Step 3: Strike out the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own!
  1. Just in time to catch the morning news/ And you were somewhere but nowhere to be found
  2. Don't tell her her lies 'cause she'll believe/ Boy she's still got baby teeth
  3. So I look in your direction/ but you pay me no attention, do you?
  4. Every time our eyes meet/ This feeling inside me
  5. Oh the phone you know it never stops, it's the last thing I hear at night/ and the first thing in the morning.
  6. He's alive, he's electric, became a legend as the years go by/ he was a liar, but I accept it, he was a legend in my own mind
  7. People living their lives for you on TV/ They say they're better than you and you agree
  8. I will not make the same mistakes that you did/ I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
  9. Let it never be said the romance is dead? 'cause there's so little else occupying my head
  10. It's leaving time again/ I'm heading out with all my friends
  11. I dance around this house/ Tear us down, throw us out
  12. It doesn't hurt me/ You wanna feel how it feels
  13. I'm a boy, she's a girl/ We're all doing this around the world
  14. I like to dream yes, yes, right between my sound machine/ On a cloud of sound I drift in the night
  15. Birds Flying high, you know how I feel/ Sun in the sky, you know how I feel
  16. What raveges of spirit conjured the temptuos rage/ Created you a monster broken by the rules of love
  17. we'll do it all, everything on our own/ We don't need anything or anyone
  18. Try'na decide Try'na decide if/ I really wanna go out tonight
  19. I stayed in one place for long/ gotta get on the run again
  20. If you don't take me to Paris on a lover's getaway?it's alright, It's alright
  21. I woke up in a Soho doorway/ A policeman knew my name
  22. When the calls and conversations/ Accidents and accusations
  23. The time is right/ The sun is sleepin' in the sky
  24. Come to me now/ Lay your hands over me
  25. You are my sweetest downfall/ I loved you first, I loved you first
  26. Night falls, I fall/ And where were you, and where you?
  27. Last night a little dancer came dancing to my room/ Last night a little Angel came pumping on my floor
  28. Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air/ I know I can count on you – You've got the Love
  29. Mind if I sit down/ Can I buy you a round
  30. Lay a whisper on my pillow/ lLave the winter on the Ground
Did anyone else have to have a cheat sheet for this???

Job stuff

Mar. 18th, 2011 01:13 am
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I have been put up for a few more jobs! and also have been contacted for a position nearby as well. So life is going well in that way. I am alos pursuing two dream job areas one is in publishing I am putting myself up for internships (Paid) for as many publishing houses as I can find, and applying for all the vacancies I can in that area as well. I am also looking at the justice field. I am not a lawyer, I have no interest in being one either. I am more than happy in supporting that role in what ever way I can within abilities and within moral and legal frameworks (yes, yes, a rather formal language, but it's best to be on record.)

I have an interview workshop tomorrow and  I am hoping I am not going to bump into a woman I had to deal with at part 1. She was rude to the point of urgh. She kept interupting the leader, then she talked about what she thought was important and also her personal life and I was all, under my breath, "Shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up ... I am going to kill you" an hour workshop ended up and hour and a half because of the bitch! Lets hope I can get a lot out of this.
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 So I did an interview an I thought I had tanked it. Nope, apparently I was successful and I am through to the second level. But, and there is always a but, I need to work on my confidence. So, yep I am trying to work that out. I have also been put forward for a second job - which seems interesting, though I have less than a lot to go on with it, other than the guy is looking for sales/customer service/marketing or promotions girls - well I fit two of those categories! I also took an interview workshop which really helps. Istead of giving experience as anecdotal stories - I will now have a stich, task, activity, response structure to all answers.

I other news what I thought was TJMD turns out to be a lot lot lot more serious - anyone who follows me on twitter knows I have spent MONTHS and MONTHS bitching about the level of pain I was in. Someday I was walking around with most of my face aching deeply in pulses and it sucks enough that you are taking ibuprofen. Then there were days where the ache gave way to electrical pulses that went up to my nose, my forehead, my jaws and pounded like ice shots through my teeth.

I would get this for an hour and then I would think pain killers had kicked in and it would go away. Things got worse about a month ago. I was getting those painful excruciating attacks every other day - and then they started prolonging in duration. hour to two hours.

Two weekends ago things came to head, the pain never left, It started on Friday night and it was terrible, I was crying and nothing would stop it. I began essentially overdosing on Ibuprofen and Paracetemol (tylenol for the North American's reading) in a bid to get some relief. I got none, and the same went for sleep. I broke about 6pm on Saturday - I was screaming and writhing. I was also beginning to day dream of either smashing my face against my bedpost ends (iron bedstead)or committing suicide. I was completely out of my fucking tree.

I saw a Emergency doctor - told him what I thought it were and he prescribed co-dydramol an opiate based painkiller with a tylenol add on analgesic. On top of that cocktail I was also given Diazepam as a muscle relaxer. I took them on the way home - must have looked like a drug addict, but I really could not care about appearances. I was in such a way that I didn't know what was really going on anymore. I didn't sleep Saturday. by 2pm Sunday I was nuts with the pain and I called the Emergency doctor and I was sobbing down the phone. I was told to come in ASAP and that his colleague would see me irrespective of who was appointed. I saw him and explained the issue and well, this gets covered in an entry HERE 

Well my miracle drugs have side effects. I can be a little spazzy and blank on things which I can live with, and it doesn't cover all the pain - I have a very minimal ache most of the time - i can live with that. The one thing I have really liked about these pills - tiny though they are is that I get a mood balance (Can I get a laugh) that makes me hyper and kinda perky (Like that girl in high school you always had a suspicion would one day snap - yep, that's me right now) Thing is, it was me, before the pain started 2 years ago - It's the me John fell in love with - I have focus and drive and passion again. I don't feel dead inside, I don't feel the dread I have that the pain will come. I am positive - and with all the support and the testimonials I have seen about TN I feel as thought I can have a career and kids and the life I really want!

And tomorrow is St. Patrick's - John has decided to go out with the lads and have a laugh. He is apparently goign to dress in his big paddy's day hat and his guiness T-shirt, cause  you know looking like a muppet does not faze my man (Good thing too, we have a daughter at any point, I know that she will dress him up in make up, and he will let her. Yes, I know what kind of daddy my man will make) So whilst my man is dressing up, I am heading to my besties (though in my heart she is my little sister) and we are drinking lime Cordial (All I could find that was Green) and eat cake! Sounds like a celebration to me!
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You were born during a New moon

The moon is dark in this phase, because the half that's illuminated by the sun is facing away from Earth.

- what it says about you -

You want to leave an impression on people and make your mark on the world. When you love an idea, you'll work hard for it, sometimes even dropping whatever it is you're doing to go on to the next new great thing that's captured your imagination. The more freedom you have to chose what you're doing, the busier you'll be.

What phase was the moon at on your birthday? Find out at Spacefem.com

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 So there is a support group that I have joined that seems incredibly friendly, in fact from the time I put up a profile I have had four welcomes and two friendings - and 1 of the welcomes was from the sites founder - which was awesome since the site is one of like 20 for rare conditions! 

They have a blog thing there and I am going to blog specific TN stuff there. I will mention it here, but no one really wants to know that I feel like someone is chainsawing their way through my face. No one wants to read that.

But I thought I would share my initial blog post from there to here;

Who Am I? A quick introduction.

Hi, my name is Angela (though my friends call me Angel and you guys an too!), I am a 29 year old grad of psychology and English. I live in London UK. I love singing, acting, and have a major dream of being a writer. I have a boyfriend of 2.5 years a perpetually asleep cat named Brandy, who is the inheritance from the passing of my parents, I have no biological siblings - but my best friend has been non-legally binding adopted by me as my sister.

I believe in disabled, women's, and homeless people's rights. I am that annoying person in a queue who will start up a conversation, and for some reason I am an open book. As a kid I wanted to be a spaceman (shoot for the stars, huh?) and an actress. I am still finding myself out and what I want from to give to the world. I also suffer TN - and the past week of assimilating that concept has been miserable.

And how did I wind up here, at this place in my life?

Last weekend I had an attack that lasted all weekend and the idea of that happening this weekend scares the pants off of me to be frank. My long-term boyfriend is away and the idea of the pain coming back scares me.

I was diagnosed last weekend. I screamed most of the weekend. Was given opiate based painkillers to deal with the pain - and they never even put a dent in it. The more I was scared and anxious because of the pain, the more the pain came. If I was in the cold, the pain eased off, as soon as I sat on a bus or went home the pain was agony. I thought I was going to go insane - and to a degree I did. I started contemplating an end to it all, I didn't see the pain ever leaving, or even reducing down.

Right now I have a deep ache in my cheek and a feeling of inflamed gums and an ache-y jaw. I hate to think what the feeling would be without the Carbamazepine that I am on - though I think the dosage will likely be upped.

My biggest issue asides from the pain, is my local GP , who is only to happy to have me on the meds and threw out a second prescription, but when I asked for a referral to a face pain specialist, I was told it could wait and that the meds were going to "Cure" me. I am going to have to change doctor to be taken seriously.

This is ridiculous! I know there are people out there who are drug seeking, but they tend to be limited to taking opiate based drugs and if that is what my doctor is suspecting with me - he is going to have an interesting shock, the only thing that has worked is the Carbamazepine, and I would like to see how someone could get addicted to these side effects.

I never asked for this, no one ever has. I am 29 - I have kids in my future, I have a career in my future - just like everyone else does here. How do I incorporate this? How do I even get through a job interview when I get majorly distracted, blank minded and just spaz out?

How do I learn to keep calm and lose my anxious side, which seems to make this worse?

And is it ok to use this blog to talk about the TN - my journey and also as a therapeutic device - talking about it seems to reduce the stress levels. I am also starting to feel like I am among friends and people who know what I am talking about here.

Take care of yourselves,


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 I can't really use language to describe how horrific the pain I have been having, agony seems like to insignificant a word. I now know I can cake walk childbirth without painkillers!!!

So about three weeks ago I ate a baguette, and I began having horrendous pains - I thought, and to some degree I still do that I had a problem with my Temporomandibular joint, but then it got a million times worse and for an hour I have sharp lightening bursts of pain through my top and bottom jaw. I knew it wasn't teeth related because I can press on them all without any pain increase. After that I took pain killers but I was still in a degree of pain, it carried on with spasms that were horrific in intensity and reduced me to insensate screaming fits. 

This weekend I began realizing that TMJD a disorder of the Temporomandibular joint, didn't cause the level of pain I was in and on Saturday I wound up at my emergency doctors, he gave me diazepam to relax my muscles (pain makes me tense them) and co-dydramol - an opiate based painkiller - one of the strongest before hitting oxycontin and vicodin! Returning home I popped my pills and hoped they would be the end of the issue. I didn't sleep again that night. I spent most of it sobbing my eyes out as the pain got to new excruciating levels. I screamed and begged the gods to just end me and put me out of my misery - I could see no end in sight. I got through the following hours i don't know how- but by 2pm sunday I was just so far deep in pain I was nearly insane - I went back to the Emergency docs - I was sobbing down the phone, but going out in the cold was wonderful!!! No pain!!

I sat with the doc I had seen the day before and, if I weren't with someone, if he weren't married; I'd propose marriage to him. He looked at me and listened to me explain how horrific it was both times, and on Sunday his face fell. He knew that if typical pain killers didn't work it was nerve based. He gave me my diagnosis trigeminal neuralgia, I had read about it, I was thankful I didn't have it, but, now it seems, I do - so now I have a life long chronic pain condition.

Sitting across from the doctor he writes me a prescription and he says, you are going to look at the side effects to this and come back asking for something else. To explain how horrific I felt at that point my reply was easy, I would take ANY side effect other than paralysis or death - since that is neither of the effects of this drug - yay! I have been prescribed Tegretol, which was created for this particular neuralgia in 1953 and is still front-line, but has found uses for specific epilepsy types and also as a mood stabiliser. (Hey look mom, I am giddy happy - which is a happy hahaha upshot, worthwhile too)

But there is hope and there is a couple of upsides to this. Upside 1. I can do childbirth without painkillers - I really have experienced far far worse!!! And I survived!!! Two my "magic drugs" as[livejournal.com profile] wand3rlust calls them (hey, she tweeted that!) work incredibly well, leaving me with just a dull ache (which I can ignore, compared to the insane screaming and inability to think about anything but the pain) and so far no real side effects! finally the hope is that at some point I can have an operation that has a 75% success rate at the 5 year point - that is a statistic I like.
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Today I spent a lot of time soul searching. Which, for the most part is what I have been doing for the past few months. Today was a lot more concerted.

I have finally worked out the sectors that interest me;
  • Admin, business, clerical and management
  • Social work and related - specialising in disability/women and children and Homelessness and mental health
  • Information Technology
  • Media
  • Business
  • Human resources 
  • Publishing
Read more... )

So all in all, I have a lot more focus - a lot more direction and a lot more research and information to pick up some actual job apps and perhaps contacts. I feel a lot more confident about everything from a career in Business to a career in Writing (which has been a dream since I was 15 - It will happen)

Meme time

Feb. 19th, 2011 08:50 pm
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 This one is courtesy of [livejournal.com profile] nazkey 

[ ] You go/have gone tanning.
[X] You own an iPod/mp3 player. (As of the end of this month - it will be three - I am a technohoarder/geek *shrug*)
[X] You love Starbucks. (Peppermint Mocha's all the way)
[ ] You have been called a brat.
[ ] You have tons of shoes. (50 pairs, without a pump or high heel in the closet)
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale.
[X] You have/had a laptop. 
[ ]You love shopping.

[X] Black is one of your favorite colors. (Been wearing it since I was 9. Mum thought I looked as though I were going to a funeral
[ ] You wear chains.
[X] you like heavy metal.
[ ] you've shopped at hot topic
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[X ] You have/had/or wanted piercings.
[ ] You own a pair of Tripp pants
[X] u have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend. (Is purple unnatural, I forget now lol)

[X] You can skateboard. (Badly, but I can hold my own with the 8y/o's)
[ ] You like plaid.
[X] You have Converse.
[x] You hate mtv. (I miss what it used to be.)
[X] you have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair. (I dye it red from blonde quite regularly)
[X] You love mohawks
[X] You LOVE Music.
[X ] Hate people who pretend to be something they are not

[X] You are sad sometimes.
[ ] You have dark colored glasses.
[X ] You cry easily.
[ ] You like emo music
[X ] You've kept a journal/diary.
[X] You have written a sad poem.
[X] you have dyed your hair
[ ]You're sad when you're drunk

[X] You like rap.
[X] have said "Fo Sho, Fo Shizzle, Fo Sheezy, etc." (In an ironic way - hang with John for a while and it happens)
[ ] You have worn/wanted a grill.
[ ] You have had a freestyling contest.
[ ] You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
[ ] you know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
[ ] You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant
[X] You like loud music.
[ ] You love/like the Ninja Turtles.
[X] You have slip-on shoes.
[ ] You like Normal Jean. (Is this supposed to be Norma Jean?)
[X] People have called you a freak and meant it lovingly
[ ] You love to "hardcore" dance
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[X] You wear jeans a lot.

[ ] You LOVE The OC.
[ ] You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog.
[ ] Your usual outfits consist of pink.
[X] You like buying shoes A LOT.
[ ] You have clothes from Hollister.AE,and/or Abercrombie
[ ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[ ] You have/had big sunglasses.
[ ] You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect.

[ ] You watch/watched the Superbowl.
[X] You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect jerseys.
[ ] You have/ had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[X] You belong/belonged to a team.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
TOTAL: 2 (!!!!)

[ ] You like putting little bows in your hair
[ ] You have mini-skirts.
[X] You have parted your hair to the side.
[ ] You think polka-dots are way cute.
[X] You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture. 
[ ] You've been called scene before.
[ ] You wear/wore long, colorful socks with your skirts 

[ ] Gone four wheeling.
[ ] Went hunting.
[ ] Owned a four/three-wheeler or dirt bike...ect.
[ ] Like to go fishing.
[ ] Eat beef jerky
[ ] Ever said GIT-R-DONE.
[X] Listened to the song Redneck Woman.
[X] Know who Bocephus is.
[ ] You wear band shirts A LOT.
[ ] If people down talk metal you down talk their favorite music.
[ ] You like bands like As I Lay Dying, Lamb Of God, and All That Remains.
[ ] You HATE emos
[ ] You like Black Sabbath.
[ ] You have gone to Ozzfest.
[ ] You have headband. 
[ ] You don't like rap.
[X] You have a taste for classic rock as well.
The 1 that you have the most X's under will be your title!! Change the X's from the last person, and the total to!! and that is your title!

Hmmm apparently I am a punk???
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For those of you who do not know, I am DYSLEXIC and DYSCALCULIC, the first educational difficulty (sometimes described as a disability) is probably quite familiar to all reading. For those however who are not familiar with the issue, it is simply an issue with signs and symbols associated with the formation and recognition of language. 

I have had DYSLEXIA for a long time, probably my entire life, my mother was not keen on having me diagnosed (though lord knows I could have done with it) for fear of discrimination. I was finally diagnosed 7 months after her passing. It was a relief to finally know why I had difficulties with certain things in my life, and why reading was a slow process. I do however love reading and by proxy writing.

DYSCALCULIA on the flip side is the bane of my life. It is quite simply the same as DYSLEXIA but with regards for numerical systems - explains my math scores. I am quite frankly shocking.

So why am I talking and telling you guys about my educational difficulties (disabilities), well quite simply because I am annoyed/irritated/pissed of in the extreme. 

At the desk at which I am sat are a bunch of books left by the previous user of the desk - I am at a library, trying to write - on disability, sociology and the role of social workers in disability. I have spent my life surrounded by disability, both physical and educational, so I pick up one of the smaller text books. 

I flick through it, agreeing that the role of society does have a significant impact in the way disabled people view themselves. I believe that eternal labels (i.e. labels placed on people by others and not descriptors of themselves produce behaviours and limitations that are not necessarily concomitant with the disorder/disability/difficulty at all.) So participially I agree with this book. But by the time I reach through the end of the text book I am singularly frustrated by its limited scope.

What was the limited scope?

Quite simply it described physical, surface level medicalized  disorders. This is defeating the point of the book, because its principal argument has not only been shown to be evident in its authors, but a prejudice and singular understanding of disability has been presented/taught to the reader.

Disabilities/difficulties/disorders are a much more far reaching in the scope than just physical limitations.

My single problem is the fact that this sociology book is reinforcing the stereotype of "Disability is only what is seen". This is not only incorrect, but highly damaging. Those with what is considered 'hidden disabilities' fight harder for their rights than those with something highly visible (I am in no way meaning to belittle the stereotypically disabled persons fight for rights/acceptance/basic living conditions etc. or to say that they have it easy, they don't. It just happens that it is visible and unarguably present)

Why do we have to fight harder for our rights?

Because, simply, they are invisible, they aren't resultant in some terrible calamity or unfortunate circumstance of birth. They are there and there is not a reason as to why. We just have to get on with it, all the while listening to any one who sees us struggling belittle our efforts.

Belittle? How?

Simply put most of my life I have been told I am stupid, lazy, pathetic, worthless, a daydreamer (okay so that one may be true), an ignorant wretch, and that I was never going anywhere because I just hadn't the intelligence to learn certain things or make anything of myself.

Well as a part of my dyslexia screening I was given an IQ test and barring the fact that my maths and numerical skills are deeply flawed as is my short-term memory, my IQ came out at 124. The average is 97 to 107. Stupid? I think not!

So again the invisible disability is ignored, and those struggling are labelled as anything but what they are, denying them any access to help and support.

So what does this have to do with the book?

By ignoring the invisible disability, to which many hundreds of thousands cope with on a daily basis, this book has swept them back under the carpet, validated the thinking of the idea that it is fakery and negated a large and significant part of the population. As this is a text book that states that it is "Based on the social rather than the medical model of disability" and "Engages health professionals in critical reflection on the provision of services to disabled people" and is meant to guide future health care professionals, of which psychology - a healthcare profession primarily concerned with the internal disorders, and understanding, of the mind - it relegates disability to only the physical, and therefore allows a social opinion and boxing of only physical disability being life impairing and significant.

I am angry. Dyslexia/Dycalculia is just as significant to me, I too need some understanding. I worry when our healthcare professionals are being taught only in the visual or medical realms of disability, when disability is far more encompassing than a narrow definition that this book gave it.
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Tyger! Tyger! burning bright,
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

                                      (The Tyger, William Blake)

Thoughts on Outcasts

From the beginning of the Episode there are a few - ok rather a lot of questions that flitter through the viewers mind. Our introduction is a ship headed towards a planet and that was my technical bug bear - they had it making noises - BSG did this in a way quite well, there is no noise in space as there is no air to carry the sound and even if there was, how would you hear it through an environmental suit???? Get your motherfrakking science right lads!!! 
Read more... )
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I now have a new ship Racetrack/Helo - good gods where does that even come from? My original was and always be Helo/Sharon, 2nd is Kara/Lee - though it is the one I write third is even Zak/Kara (and that has to really be pre- mini for me) But a non canonical no tip of the hat to pairing WTF x1000

Other than that Sunday is a thoroughly boring day when it is superbowl sunday :(
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 I had to do one small thing - I had to change my journal layout just a little. I love this style, for now.

More Icons

Feb. 5th, 2011 11:56 pm
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 I am telling you now they are only reduced and cropped there is nothing fancy here



I know there is a lot of Jamie Bamber here, but he is eminently fanciable so :P

And because I am sick - and I did find this paint!sex scene beyond the motherfrakking hot. (I also have a thing for Callum Keith Rennie - have done since Due South *Purrs*)

I will be doing some for my other fandoms - at some point!
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Yep I have been making Icons. Ok so it has only been a case of cropping and resizing pictures - but I am damn proud If you want - feel free to take, just credit 
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No I am not all stabbity. I figured that was something that would be worth stating right now. But yeah, I had an issue this week, and it bleed everywhere. My boyfriend, who seriously makes the tedium of unemployment bearable, had to traipse off to Dundee, in gloriously fucked up and freezing Scotland. So on Sunday I said farewell and that day I was ok. But Monday and Tuesday were hell on Earth. I got a few texts and a couple 30 second chats before he went to bed, but nothing else. And suddenly I felt alone. Added to this trying to enter any conversations with any friends over the last couple of days has not been fun - mostly cause very few people responded to me. My sense of isolation and loneliness went sky high and well everyone got to see me losing the plot on twitter. Which has me worried - I thought I was a little more stable and durable than this.

In Other News

So everyone knows my state of employment or not, a couple of things are happening for me in that regards so lets bullet point and try to explain them a little.

  • I have been referred to a company called Ingeus - A company that helps people get back into work. They seem to be a great place, and I did walk out really optimistic that they would cover the things I needed that the government have overlooked completely. They seem good, I hope that the next six months are high yield in terms of opportunities.
  • I am going to be starting a training course in Business Administration - this is important because at least now I can have a steady progression and not face the rest of my life is pathetic dead end jobs.

Hopefully these two things will mean that I can start looking at things like entry level career jobs (the kind everyone seems so invested in) What is a career anyway? Is it staying in one field for the rest of my life or is it different jobs with a thread between them? I give up trying to define anything. 
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Yes, yes it is that scene once more. But the take on it is fresh and funny - a must see for all.

Voice Meme

Jan. 29th, 2011 02:01 am
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I swear I am not band wagoneering - though perhaps I am? A good friend [livejournal.com profile] nazkey (who I am now afraid of because I mispronounced her name, I just know I have) did this voice meme and it sounded like fun and well hello heard of lemmings, may I too follow you over the edge of a cliff!

So here is what I sound like - for once I have listened to this twice and loved the way I sounded - perhaps this is me getting older! Oh and the huffs and puffs are me a remembering to breath (so important I do find) and also trying to stop the giggles from appearing!

soundcloud.com/angelicalangie/vn00002-20110129-0113 - Me speaking (I had to record it on my blackberry cause my computer hated me and then convert and send back to computer yeah headache-y) so YEp I apologise for the quality!

the bits I had to do


Where are you from?

Read these words: aunt, roof, wash, oil, theater, iron, salmon, caramel, fire, water, sure, data, ruin, crayon, toilet, New Orleans, route, pecan, both, again, probably, spitting image, Alabama, lawyer, coupon, mayonnaise, syrup, pajamas, caught, orange, coffee, direction, naturally, aluminum, and herbs.

(Eruthros's additions: really, bowie knife, handkerchief, poem, creek, Florida, and basil )

What is your generic term for a sweetened carbonated beverage?
What do you call shoes you wear to play sports?
What is the bug that, when you touch it, curls into a ball?
What do you call the kind of spider that has an oval-shaped body and extremely long legs?
What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket?
What do you call the insect that flies around in the summer and has a rear section that glows in the dark?
What do you call the big clumps of dust that gather under furniture and in corners?
What is your general term for a big road that you drive relatively fast on?
What do you say to address a group of people?

Recite this passage:

Please call Stella. Ask her to bring these things with her from the store: Six spoons of fresh snow peas, five thick slabs of blue cheese, and maybe a snack for her brother Bob. We also need a small plastic snake and a big toy frog for the kids. She can scoop these things into three red bags, and we will go meet her Wednesday at the train station.

And now you can see what a verbose little thing I am!


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