understanding myself
Aug. 30th, 2006 01:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angel_janeWell had an interesting birthday. And now the calmness has overcome me and I have to admit I like this feeling. I wish I could spend every moment awake like this.
I feel like if I stand still for a moment all my answers and pieces of answers to most questions will colide and understanding will prevzail (could also be the type of music I am lisening to, but I feel really chilled.) I think this is the true meaning of lassiez faire.
My presents have been few but meaningful.
Dad;
a pair of heart shaped sterling silver earings
An SGA dvd,
A bottle of Nantucket Briar Perfume
Steph;
A voucher for things at Virgin
The only spoilt moment is I got not so much as a card from a 'beloved' Aunt and Uncle. this is depressing. Do I mean so little that they would do this? I will see what the mail holds tomorrow. Hope springsever eternally in my life.
On the relationship side of things, I think I have hit the whole screw it side of things. I care not for what happens at this point in time. I hardly feel lonely.
I do feel however wiser than I was 2 years ago, I feel like I have taken a really long journey and put my first steps into the soil of adulthood. I realise now Adulthood doesn't just happen when you pass a specific birthday, but it occurs with experience and knowledge and the right people in your life.
There are still journeys to be taken, plenty of them. But they are ones that should only ever be taken when you hit a specific maturity, otherwise what do you pass on? Problems and immaturity.
I feel like if I stand still for a moment all my answers and pieces of answers to most questions will colide and understanding will prevzail (could also be the type of music I am lisening to, but I feel really chilled.) I think this is the true meaning of lassiez faire.
My presents have been few but meaningful.
Dad;
a pair of heart shaped sterling silver earings
An SGA dvd,
A bottle of Nantucket Briar Perfume
Steph;
A voucher for things at Virgin
The only spoilt moment is I got not so much as a card from a 'beloved' Aunt and Uncle. this is depressing. Do I mean so little that they would do this? I will see what the mail holds tomorrow. Hope springsever eternally in my life.
On the relationship side of things, I think I have hit the whole screw it side of things. I care not for what happens at this point in time. I hardly feel lonely.
I do feel however wiser than I was 2 years ago, I feel like I have taken a really long journey and put my first steps into the soil of adulthood. I realise now Adulthood doesn't just happen when you pass a specific birthday, but it occurs with experience and knowledge and the right people in your life.
There are still journeys to be taken, plenty of them. But they are ones that should only ever be taken when you hit a specific maturity, otherwise what do you pass on? Problems and immaturity.
