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The first time I had sex
Jun. 4th, 2005 11:35 pmNOT FOR CHILDREN******NOT FOR CHILDREN
this has been a long time in coming. I couldn't do it until my mum knew I had sex, it was only two months after that she died. I still felt I had to live up to this vestal virgin image I managed to create for myself. What a crock that was
The man was my first boyfriend at 22 Steve. He had come down from oldham and for the days he had been down here, he was in a hotel. Each night I ould sneak up to his room and we would engage in everything but sex. On the morning of his departure we finally did it. I stripped off, so did he, the room was silent and I laid down as he kissed me, dragged me to the edge of the bed and spread my legs, he entered and pumped a few times and then he came, he took of the condom he'd used and walked away. I laid there, I didn't know what was coming next. He bagan to get dressed and I finally got the idea. That was the first time. there was no romance, but I was in love and I didn't care. we waited for the train to londoon we talked and kissed, I cried and he promised we see each other agin.
Deep down there was an emptyness, i had had no orgasm, had had no sensation of really losing my virginity and in some ways felt no more closer than before. It had lasted a few minuets at most. I had sex with him a few more times, all with exactly the same result. he was inexperienced, I didn't care. I figured that was all I was ever going to get. then we broke up, took me 5 long months three of which was me dealing with my mothers passing before I wanted to date.
I met Rich, the man I am with now. before I thought all ordinary men, the non porno versions, lasted a few mins, I mean you hear women bemoaning men for their lack of durability in bed all the time. Rich has proven this wrong, god knows how long the energiser bunny of sex can go, but I sure wanna know. He may have slept with a few women in the past few years, but I trust him. I do know one thing, he loves the fact that he can make me orgasm several times (Oh yes he has the power to turn me multi-orgasmic) apparently he has never had a woman do that. Ah always happy to please. (Now I sound wal-mart, if only they could please like this)
this has been a long time in coming. I couldn't do it until my mum knew I had sex, it was only two months after that she died. I still felt I had to live up to this vestal virgin image I managed to create for myself. What a crock that was
The man was my first boyfriend at 22 Steve. He had come down from oldham and for the days he had been down here, he was in a hotel. Each night I ould sneak up to his room and we would engage in everything but sex. On the morning of his departure we finally did it. I stripped off, so did he, the room was silent and I laid down as he kissed me, dragged me to the edge of the bed and spread my legs, he entered and pumped a few times and then he came, he took of the condom he'd used and walked away. I laid there, I didn't know what was coming next. He bagan to get dressed and I finally got the idea. That was the first time. there was no romance, but I was in love and I didn't care. we waited for the train to londoon we talked and kissed, I cried and he promised we see each other agin.
Deep down there was an emptyness, i had had no orgasm, had had no sensation of really losing my virginity and in some ways felt no more closer than before. It had lasted a few minuets at most. I had sex with him a few more times, all with exactly the same result. he was inexperienced, I didn't care. I figured that was all I was ever going to get. then we broke up, took me 5 long months three of which was me dealing with my mothers passing before I wanted to date.
I met Rich, the man I am with now. before I thought all ordinary men, the non porno versions, lasted a few mins, I mean you hear women bemoaning men for their lack of durability in bed all the time. Rich has proven this wrong, god knows how long the energiser bunny of sex can go, but I sure wanna know. He may have slept with a few women in the past few years, but I trust him. I do know one thing, he loves the fact that he can make me orgasm several times (Oh yes he has the power to turn me multi-orgasmic) apparently he has never had a woman do that. Ah always happy to please. (Now I sound wal-mart, if only they could please like this)